I have never liked philharmonic orchestras much.
I hate the volume of the music. It’s like banging in the ears and you wouldn't be able to pick up the subtle pleasing elements, once the music piece is played by such a large group of musical instruments.
But I changed my mind last night.
I have never like philharmonic orchestras because I have never seen a good one.
I went to the Piazza Live Relay of the Berliner Philharmoniker performance last night. We were all sitting on the ground of the square outside of the Hong Kong Cultural Centre, in which the concert hall where the actual performance was housed.
Although the quality of the sound was not as good as in the concert hall for sure, the experience I hope was comparable.
“Music is alive” was what I summed up the whole performance. You could really feel that there was life to the music: It was not just a reproduction of the notes on the scores, but a resurrection of the spirit of the music captured in the various notes that made up the pieces.
Obviously the musicians, including the conductor, were top-notched, because they put the breath of life back into the music.
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As a side issue, I was enlightened again by my interaction with the fellow audience. Since we were sitting outside in the open air, and nobody needed to pay, the audience was fundamentally different from those sitting in the concert hall. Basically, people did not necessarily observe the basic etiquette of going to this kind of performance. People coughed, munched on their potato chips and biscuits, made laud gobbling sounds, and talked, during the performance. It’s true that they consciously kept to the minimum level of noise, but if you were in the concert hall, you would simply NOT do them.
I am a person who cares very much about what is right and what is wrong. The behaviours of these people sitting around me simply irritated and distracted me. This was most felt when I realized I missed the first 2 movements of Richard Strass’ Ein Heldenleben because I indulged in staring at the lady sitting next to me munching away happily at her chips and biscuits.
It was such a loss!!
If I had not indulged in such meaningless activities, I could enjoy the concert much more. This, I believe, is equally true if I have not indulged in complaining about the wrongs of myself or others around me, but move on with improving the life ahead of me.
Come to think of it, you only live once, so why waste your energy on such distractions?
Concentrate on meaningful things will be my motto henceforth.
15 November 2005
14 November 2005
To be or not to be, that's the question
What do you do when you don’t have much to do at work?
I think I like this job as much as I hate it.
A project has its life cycle, and hence the peak and low seasons. During the peak seasons, I would not be able to rest too much. Sometimes I even have to stay up till the small hours of the morning to coordinate testing activities. During the low seasons, though, I often need to surf on the net for the whole day. I feel especially useless at these times. And when I get more and more used to the job, I get more and more efficient so the workload is becoming less and less.
Surely I can tell my bosses that I have nothing to do, but that means in the peak seasons I would be much worse off. So, what should I do?
Being a Christian, I believe that I should be diligent and trustworthy. But isn’t there a saying, “promotion is punishment”? The better you are, the more jobs you would take from those not performing. So, you end up doing 2 to 3 persons’ work, while those slack people can just sit there and wait for the next pay day. Worse still, your boss would push the bar higher and higher for you, so that you never reach his expectation and he never needs to award you with promotion or pay rise. That’s the aim for bosses, isn’t it, getting people to be more and more efficient while paying you less and less?
This is a true dilemma for me. I would like to be honest and right in my job, but on the other hand, not be “punished” by more workload that drives me to the limits, and threaten my health.
Lord, please help me in solving this “mystery”!!
I think I like this job as much as I hate it.
A project has its life cycle, and hence the peak and low seasons. During the peak seasons, I would not be able to rest too much. Sometimes I even have to stay up till the small hours of the morning to coordinate testing activities. During the low seasons, though, I often need to surf on the net for the whole day. I feel especially useless at these times. And when I get more and more used to the job, I get more and more efficient so the workload is becoming less and less.
Surely I can tell my bosses that I have nothing to do, but that means in the peak seasons I would be much worse off. So, what should I do?
Being a Christian, I believe that I should be diligent and trustworthy. But isn’t there a saying, “promotion is punishment”? The better you are, the more jobs you would take from those not performing. So, you end up doing 2 to 3 persons’ work, while those slack people can just sit there and wait for the next pay day. Worse still, your boss would push the bar higher and higher for you, so that you never reach his expectation and he never needs to award you with promotion or pay rise. That’s the aim for bosses, isn’t it, getting people to be more and more efficient while paying you less and less?
This is a true dilemma for me. I would like to be honest and right in my job, but on the other hand, not be “punished” by more workload that drives me to the limits, and threaten my health.
Lord, please help me in solving this “mystery”!!
02 November 2005
What a long absence - some miscellaneous thoughts
It has been 3 months since I last posted anything here.
I was extremely busy in August because of projects at work, and then extremely busy with my study in September and October.
Can you imagine that after taking 3 weeks of holiday in the two months of Sep and Oct, I only barely finished my 3 assignments for the one MBA subject?
Gee, that was tough.
Work is now much more quiet. I could fall back to my normal web-surfing-whole-day state. It's good for a change, but definitely not a good sign if it is always like this.
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I think I really need a holiday away from Hong Kong.
I have not been flying out of Hong Kong since March 2004. This is the longest yet since I got on this Project Management job. Normally I need to fly out once a year at least, so it's a bit hard to adapt to the fact that I am staying in Hong Kong for such a long period. I feel sort of itchy; a strong urge to get out of town for a few days. But flying out alone is a very lonely thing. It's even worse than watching a movie alone. I cannot explain the loneliness. I always envy other people who won't feel it.
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I had been spending heaps recently. I had been extremely tight financially this year due to a consortium of reasons, e.g. paying for my MBA studies, paying for Mum's hospital and surgery expenses, paying for a live-in maid to take care of Mum, plus my various savings plans. But I found that I could only behave (spend the bare minimum just for maintaining my exsitence) for a certain period of time. I need to spend on "luxuries" (not essential to my existence) once in a while to keep myself sane and balanced.
This is bad, because frankly speaking I do NOT have an absolute need for those things; I just like having them. These are things like my new iPod Nano, which I bought myself as a birthday gift, and my new sets of gold jewelry. (Note that I used setS. That means I bought more than 1 set. Sigh...) On the one hand, I need to do this to release the pressure that was built up by the highly varying workload, but on the other hand, I hate myself for spending on "luxurious" goods which could turn into some people's keeping for probably several years.
But I guess if God gave me the money to spend, I could just spend within the limits. It's true that it might be due to some personality weakness that you may call "sinful nature", that I like to spend money like this, but I guess if God doesn't mind that much, why should I? He does allow me the spare money. Probably He knows that I need this to keep myself sane??
Well, there's no point arguing with myself like this. I shall know when I see Him up there.
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I know that I live a life that seems to have little trouble, but within this quite stable, and regarded as well off living by some brothers and sisters, I do have my problems and worries. It's true for everyone I guess. Some may be quite poor in terms of money, but rich in terms of their gratitude towards what they have. Some may be filthy rich and yet uncontended. I guess if God grant me this way of life, I should just be grateful and enjoy every second of it, giving thanks to Him for what I have and don't have.
Thank you Lord, my Father in Heaven.
I was extremely busy in August because of projects at work, and then extremely busy with my study in September and October.
Can you imagine that after taking 3 weeks of holiday in the two months of Sep and Oct, I only barely finished my 3 assignments for the one MBA subject?
Gee, that was tough.
Work is now much more quiet. I could fall back to my normal web-surfing-whole-day state. It's good for a change, but definitely not a good sign if it is always like this.
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I think I really need a holiday away from Hong Kong.
I have not been flying out of Hong Kong since March 2004. This is the longest yet since I got on this Project Management job. Normally I need to fly out once a year at least, so it's a bit hard to adapt to the fact that I am staying in Hong Kong for such a long period. I feel sort of itchy; a strong urge to get out of town for a few days. But flying out alone is a very lonely thing. It's even worse than watching a movie alone. I cannot explain the loneliness. I always envy other people who won't feel it.
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I had been spending heaps recently. I had been extremely tight financially this year due to a consortium of reasons, e.g. paying for my MBA studies, paying for Mum's hospital and surgery expenses, paying for a live-in maid to take care of Mum, plus my various savings plans. But I found that I could only behave (spend the bare minimum just for maintaining my exsitence) for a certain period of time. I need to spend on "luxuries" (not essential to my existence) once in a while to keep myself sane and balanced.
This is bad, because frankly speaking I do NOT have an absolute need for those things; I just like having them. These are things like my new iPod Nano, which I bought myself as a birthday gift, and my new sets of gold jewelry. (Note that I used setS. That means I bought more than 1 set. Sigh...) On the one hand, I need to do this to release the pressure that was built up by the highly varying workload, but on the other hand, I hate myself for spending on "luxurious" goods which could turn into some people's keeping for probably several years.
But I guess if God gave me the money to spend, I could just spend within the limits. It's true that it might be due to some personality weakness that you may call "sinful nature", that I like to spend money like this, but I guess if God doesn't mind that much, why should I? He does allow me the spare money. Probably He knows that I need this to keep myself sane??
Well, there's no point arguing with myself like this. I shall know when I see Him up there.
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I know that I live a life that seems to have little trouble, but within this quite stable, and regarded as well off living by some brothers and sisters, I do have my problems and worries. It's true for everyone I guess. Some may be quite poor in terms of money, but rich in terms of their gratitude towards what they have. Some may be filthy rich and yet uncontended. I guess if God grant me this way of life, I should just be grateful and enjoy every second of it, giving thanks to Him for what I have and don't have.
Thank you Lord, my Father in Heaven.
03 August 2005
步入中年啊！
今天偷空在線閱讀一本台灣的愛情小說，以下一段在昏昏欲睡的午後，確實有提神醒腦之效，轉貼如下：
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當人們邁入中年，每個人為了生活，面目漸漸雷同。生活逼人，慢慢了無生趣，死氣沉沉如行屍走肉。
對工作敷衍，對生活隨便，甚至衣着外貌越來越不要求，太關心存簿裡的數字，對美感則興趣缺缺，害怕冒險，做事越來越低調，講話只求一團和氣，做事喜歡稳健保守，不與人爭執，怕發表意見。都開始緊張退休金、老年生活、存款多少、有没有車子房子、該生幾個小孩？將來老了病了有没有人照顧？是因為這樣，所以中年人臉上常帶着揮之不去的疲態，有時還夾纏着污濁氣。
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噢！發人深醒啊！
不敢再說愛情小說膚淺，偶然也會有點值得細味的意思。
記得年前讀席絹的《喜言是非》，潛台詞就是瘦身歪風；同一作者的另一本《不請郎自來》，談的卻是愛情太過被絕對化、美化。
噢，有很多不同的訊息意念呢！
「三人行、必有我師焉」又一例證。
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當人們邁入中年，每個人為了生活，面目漸漸雷同。生活逼人，慢慢了無生趣，死氣沉沉如行屍走肉。
對工作敷衍，對生活隨便，甚至衣着外貌越來越不要求，太關心存簿裡的數字，對美感則興趣缺缺，害怕冒險，做事越來越低調，講話只求一團和氣，做事喜歡稳健保守，不與人爭執，怕發表意見。都開始緊張退休金、老年生活、存款多少、有没有車子房子、該生幾個小孩？將來老了病了有没有人照顧？是因為這樣，所以中年人臉上常帶着揮之不去的疲態，有時還夾纏着污濁氣。
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噢！發人深醒啊！
不敢再說愛情小說膚淺，偶然也會有點值得細味的意思。
記得年前讀席絹的《喜言是非》，潛台詞就是瘦身歪風；同一作者的另一本《不請郎自來》，談的卻是愛情太過被絕對化、美化。
噢，有很多不同的訊息意念呢！
「三人行、必有我師焉」又一例證。
29 July 2005
Love in a dangerous world
I planned to have further discussion articles about HP6 after my last post. There are lots of different things to talk about. But I came across my friend's article, and found that it is very insightful. Plese have a read. And then again, if I write too much about the details straight after my last post, I think a lot of people will swear at me for leaking the story lines.
Anyway, I guess this is a good time to start talking about the book.
First of all, about love.
There are three major lines in here: Harry & Ginny, Ron & Hermione, and Bill & Fleur
About Bill & Fleur:
It came as a surprise to me actually. If I remember correctly, there had not been too much hint about their love towards each other in previous books.
And it is very interesting that in the whole of HP6, Bill has not uttered a single word!! It was a solo of Fleur's endeavour to mix into the Weasley's. I do not understand why Bill and Fleur become a pair, but I am very impressed by Fleur's show of her love to Bill after his face was badly injured by the werewolf. I especially like Fleur's declaration in the hospital wing after his injury that "I am good looking enough for both of us..."
To me, Fleur has always been just a pretty face, but after this incident, I really like her very much. She is brave and her love is very true and pure. It is not about the looks, but the person himself that she loves.
How admirable!!
About Ron & Hermione:
I really cannot understand why Hermione would fall for Ron, and vice versa. Hermione is such an intelligent girl. She knows so much and is so capable. Of course, she is not a very very pretty girl. She had large front-teeth, which she managed to get them reduced after being jinxed to much bigger and protruding. She is so soaked into studying that her she doesn't care too much about her looks. Yet, she has better opportunities, such as Victor Krum the Seeker of the Bulgarian National Quidditch Team, famous and capable.
On the other hand, Ron is always overshadowed by Harry, and his many elder brothers. It's true that he is tall and sleek, and probably might be good looking because Bill the eldest is said to be handsome (before the werewolf's attack in HP6 at least). But he is always rash and don't even have the gut to chase Hermione but allow Lavendar to wrap herself around him.
How could these two persons possibly fall for each other?
I really cannot understand!!
What does Hermione like about Ron? And wouldn't Ron feel uncomfortable about Hermione's brains and abilities? All I can say is, love is irrational, and beyond any reason.
About Harry & Ginny:
As to Harry & Ginny, I perfectly understand why Ginny loves Harry. It was actually not a surprise at all. Ginny had been very impressed by Harry starting from the first book. She was saved by Harry in the second book. She cannot be herself in front of Harry. And she has much more chance to be with Harry than any other girl, of course except Hermione. It is very easy to understand how she came to fall for Harry. And as she herself puts it, she loves him because he always puts saving the wizarding world before himself, even his love for Ginny.
As for Harry, I can only say that he finally realizes what he really wants of a lover. He needs a person he could communicate without problem, not like Cho who seems to be from a totally different world. He needs someone who truly loves him, not just his achievement and status. He needs someone he is comfortable with, can share his thoughts with, and can understand him.
But all these does not amount to his urge to chase her. It really springs from his realization that she is so much a part of his life and he can no longer bear with the thought that she is someone else's girlfriend.
Aren't we like that? When we like someone, we deny the fact by saying that we are just very good friends. But then when the person becomes someone else's girl/boy-friend, we suddenly find ourselves hopelessly in love with that person, and die to have a chance to have him/her back.
Love is a very tough and difficult topic, is it not?
Anyway, I guess this is a good time to start talking about the book.
First of all, about love.
There are three major lines in here: Harry & Ginny, Ron & Hermione, and Bill & Fleur
About Bill & Fleur:
It came as a surprise to me actually. If I remember correctly, there had not been too much hint about their love towards each other in previous books.
And it is very interesting that in the whole of HP6, Bill has not uttered a single word!! It was a solo of Fleur's endeavour to mix into the Weasley's. I do not understand why Bill and Fleur become a pair, but I am very impressed by Fleur's show of her love to Bill after his face was badly injured by the werewolf. I especially like Fleur's declaration in the hospital wing after his injury that "I am good looking enough for both of us..."
To me, Fleur has always been just a pretty face, but after this incident, I really like her very much. She is brave and her love is very true and pure. It is not about the looks, but the person himself that she loves.
How admirable!!
About Ron & Hermione:
I really cannot understand why Hermione would fall for Ron, and vice versa. Hermione is such an intelligent girl. She knows so much and is so capable. Of course, she is not a very very pretty girl. She had large front-teeth, which she managed to get them reduced after being jinxed to much bigger and protruding. She is so soaked into studying that her she doesn't care too much about her looks. Yet, she has better opportunities, such as Victor Krum the Seeker of the Bulgarian National Quidditch Team, famous and capable.
On the other hand, Ron is always overshadowed by Harry, and his many elder brothers. It's true that he is tall and sleek, and probably might be good looking because Bill the eldest is said to be handsome (before the werewolf's attack in HP6 at least). But he is always rash and don't even have the gut to chase Hermione but allow Lavendar to wrap herself around him.
How could these two persons possibly fall for each other?
I really cannot understand!!
What does Hermione like about Ron? And wouldn't Ron feel uncomfortable about Hermione's brains and abilities? All I can say is, love is irrational, and beyond any reason.
About Harry & Ginny:
As to Harry & Ginny, I perfectly understand why Ginny loves Harry. It was actually not a surprise at all. Ginny had been very impressed by Harry starting from the first book. She was saved by Harry in the second book. She cannot be herself in front of Harry. And she has much more chance to be with Harry than any other girl, of course except Hermione. It is very easy to understand how she came to fall for Harry. And as she herself puts it, she loves him because he always puts saving the wizarding world before himself, even his love for Ginny.
As for Harry, I can only say that he finally realizes what he really wants of a lover. He needs a person he could communicate without problem, not like Cho who seems to be from a totally different world. He needs someone who truly loves him, not just his achievement and status. He needs someone he is comfortable with, can share his thoughts with, and can understand him.
But all these does not amount to his urge to chase her. It really springs from his realization that she is so much a part of his life and he can no longer bear with the thought that she is someone else's girlfriend.
Aren't we like that? When we like someone, we deny the fact by saying that we are just very good friends. But then when the person becomes someone else's girl/boy-friend, we suddenly find ourselves hopelessly in love with that person, and die to have a chance to have him/her back.
Love is a very tough and difficult topic, is it not?
18 July 2005
Harry Potter & the Half Blood Prince
It is the latest book of the Harry Potter series.
Read in within 3 days of its release. Not a very notable achievement though.
Well, as with the last book "the Order of Pheonix", I feel most sad after finished reading it.
Most sad.
Last time it was my number 1 favourite character, Sirius Black, who was killed. This time, it was another most beloved character, the Headmaster Albus Dumbledore, who was killed.
Extremely sad... I was depressed for 1 whole week last time. I am not sure how long I would be depressed for this heart-felt loss.
Can't say too much at this mental state.
Will talk more about it when I feel better.
Read in within 3 days of its release. Not a very notable achievement though.
Well, as with the last book "the Order of Pheonix", I feel most sad after finished reading it.
Most sad.
Last time it was my number 1 favourite character, Sirius Black, who was killed. This time, it was another most beloved character, the Headmaster Albus Dumbledore, who was killed.
Extremely sad... I was depressed for 1 whole week last time. I am not sure how long I would be depressed for this heart-felt loss.
Can't say too much at this mental state.
Will talk more about it when I feel better.
04 July 2005
懊悔
前天晚上從退修營出來，帶著一個懊悔的心。
話說那天早上的講道是「事奉」，內容提到我們事奉會面對試探，其中一類就是「比謙卑、比屬靈」。當時只是一笑置之，雖會記著，卻未曾深究。
但在小組討論時間中，被咄咄迫問自己的事奉現狀，為何只聞樓梯響(其實是那人的以為罷了)、遲遲不見有人來，看我是個有能力的人、為何不積極事奉… …等等。
個人並不贊同那些迫問的內容：真的不敢苟同有能力就該事奉、無行動就十惡不赦。若一個人與神的關係出現了問題，要做的是從事奉崗位退下來，自我反省、檢視自己的生命，與神復和，才再出來事奉。我的事奉既然是教導，若我所教的我自己都不能行出來、不衷心地在相信，我不是成為了現代法利賽人嗎？我所教出來的，不也會步我後塵嗎？這於己於人於教會都不是好事。
有點離題。重點是，我被激怒了。
在之後的最後分享檢討大會上，我剛巧是最後一個分享的人，有兩個多小時去反覆思考這件事。於是，我明白到我受一次這樣的迫問，已經如此不高興、覺得世人都不明白我，如此孤單，如此不被了解，那我過去一段長時間時常追迫另一位弟兄，他的心情我突然就明白了。
我的咄咄迫人，不就是因為「比屬靈」、引致自義了？
然後，我後悔了。我得罪了這個弟兄、也得罪了神。
聖靈以另一個人的錯誤，提醒了我、我犯的更大的錯誤。
於是，我立志去向那弟兄道歉。道歉之時，我後悔得哽咽了。
求神的靈叫我們被此認罪、和解，以致我們的郡體能謙卑下來，彼此合一，成為神合用的器皿！
話說那天早上的講道是「事奉」，內容提到我們事奉會面對試探，其中一類就是「比謙卑、比屬靈」。當時只是一笑置之，雖會記著，卻未曾深究。
但在小組討論時間中，被咄咄迫問自己的事奉現狀，為何只聞樓梯響(其實是那人的以為罷了)、遲遲不見有人來，看我是個有能力的人、為何不積極事奉… …等等。
個人並不贊同那些迫問的內容：真的不敢苟同有能力就該事奉、無行動就十惡不赦。若一個人與神的關係出現了問題，要做的是從事奉崗位退下來，自我反省、檢視自己的生命，與神復和，才再出來事奉。我的事奉既然是教導，若我所教的我自己都不能行出來、不衷心地在相信，我不是成為了現代法利賽人嗎？我所教出來的，不也會步我後塵嗎？這於己於人於教會都不是好事。
有點離題。重點是，我被激怒了。
在之後的最後分享檢討大會上，我剛巧是最後一個分享的人，有兩個多小時去反覆思考這件事。於是，我明白到我受一次這樣的迫問，已經如此不高興、覺得世人都不明白我，如此孤單，如此不被了解，那我過去一段長時間時常追迫另一位弟兄，他的心情我突然就明白了。
我的咄咄迫人，不就是因為「比屬靈」、引致自義了？
然後，我後悔了。我得罪了這個弟兄、也得罪了神。
聖靈以另一個人的錯誤，提醒了我、我犯的更大的錯誤。
於是，我立志去向那弟兄道歉。道歉之時，我後悔得哽咽了。
求神的靈叫我們被此認罪、和解，以致我們的郡體能謙卑下來，彼此合一，成為神合用的器皿！
29 June 2005
你今日表左態未？
本人反對性傾向歧視立法，原因如下：
1.基於本人的雇員身份，設若有性傾向歧視法，本人將會因非同性戀者而反被歧視：因為一旦有同事宣稱自己是同性戀者（我們無從驗證是否屬實，就算對方有異性朋友，也可以說自己是雙性戀者），老闆若要裁員，礙於性傾向歧視法，可能先向異性戀員工開刀。但到時本人卻不可能控告老闆因本人是異性戀者而開除本人，因為這條法例顯然是偏幫同性戀者與雙性戀者，有違「平等」精神。
2.基於本人的基督徒身份，設若有性傾向歧視法，本人將會因非同性戀者而反被歧視：因為基督教信仰明確表示同性戀乃神所憎惡之罪，若本人要持守自身信仰立場，必將被判違法，到時本人卻不能以宗教自由之辯脫罪，因為這條法例顯然是偏幫同性戀者與雙性戀者，此亦有違「平等」精神。
其實作為一個基督徒，在香港這社會裡也是佔人口少於十份一之「少數」，所受的歧視也是不少。單就星期天要到教會聚會而不能上班，已經會遭到雇主的無理歧視，考核、晉升機會都能因此被貶低。若真要立法，為何不也為消除對基督徒的歧視而立法？
設若必須立法消除對性傾向之歧視，請一并立法消除對異性戀者、基督徒、天主教徒、回教徒、佛教徒、新移民……等等之歧視。
愚見認為，要得到別人的認同與尊重，絕對不是以立法此等高壓手段達成，反而要努力自強，做出佳績，叫世人都有目共睹才是。香港小小彈丸之地，當日尚在微時，何曾強制要發達國家不歧視我們？反而是自己奮發圖強，達至今日享譽國際之勢。要別人不歧視，只有自己做得好一途才是正路。
最後，本人也是有一些同性戀的朋友的，個人非單不歧視他們，更是彼此可以交流的。為何偏要立一些法例來厚此薄彼，形成更多的分化？
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請支持「一人一信反對性傾向歧視立法」
請將信件分別傳真或郵寄（白紙黑字較電郵為佳）至以下三個機構：
民政事務局：
傳真：(852)2591-6002；電郵：hab1@hab.gov.hk
地址：香港灣仔軒尼 詩道130號修頓中心31字樓
行政長官辦公室（特首辦）：
傳真：(852) 2509-0577；電郵：ceo@ceo.gov.hk
地址：香港中環下亞厘畢道中區政府合署中座五樓
平等機會委員會：
傳真：(852) 2511-8142；電郵：eoc@eoc.org.hk
地址：香港灣仔港灣道1號會展廣場辦公大樓20樓
抬頭寫：「致：民政事務局局長何志平先生、民政事務局副秘書長余志穩先生、特首曾蔭權先生、平等機會委員會主席鄧爾邦先生」
主旨可以寫：「反對性傾向歧視立法」。
寫完意見後，請記得加上署名及附上聯絡電話。
如果你支持這行動，請按上面指引發信給政府，然後將你的姓名、所屬界別電郵或傳真至香港性文化學會，並註明「支持一人一信反對性傾向歧視立法」，以便統計人數。
香港性文化學會電郵地址：info@sexculture.org.hk
傳 真：3105-9656 電 話：3165-1858
1.基於本人的雇員身份，設若有性傾向歧視法，本人將會因非同性戀者而反被歧視：因為一旦有同事宣稱自己是同性戀者（我們無從驗證是否屬實，就算對方有異性朋友，也可以說自己是雙性戀者），老闆若要裁員，礙於性傾向歧視法，可能先向異性戀員工開刀。但到時本人卻不可能控告老闆因本人是異性戀者而開除本人，因為這條法例顯然是偏幫同性戀者與雙性戀者，有違「平等」精神。
2.基於本人的基督徒身份，設若有性傾向歧視法，本人將會因非同性戀者而反被歧視：因為基督教信仰明確表示同性戀乃神所憎惡之罪，若本人要持守自身信仰立場，必將被判違法，到時本人卻不能以宗教自由之辯脫罪，因為這條法例顯然是偏幫同性戀者與雙性戀者，此亦有違「平等」精神。
其實作為一個基督徒，在香港這社會裡也是佔人口少於十份一之「少數」，所受的歧視也是不少。單就星期天要到教會聚會而不能上班，已經會遭到雇主的無理歧視，考核、晉升機會都能因此被貶低。若真要立法，為何不也為消除對基督徒的歧視而立法？
設若必須立法消除對性傾向之歧視，請一并立法消除對異性戀者、基督徒、天主教徒、回教徒、佛教徒、新移民……等等之歧視。
愚見認為，要得到別人的認同與尊重，絕對不是以立法此等高壓手段達成，反而要努力自強，做出佳績，叫世人都有目共睹才是。香港小小彈丸之地，當日尚在微時，何曾強制要發達國家不歧視我們？反而是自己奮發圖強，達至今日享譽國際之勢。要別人不歧視，只有自己做得好一途才是正路。
最後，本人也是有一些同性戀的朋友的，個人非單不歧視他們，更是彼此可以交流的。為何偏要立一些法例來厚此薄彼，形成更多的分化？
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請支持「一人一信反對性傾向歧視立法」
請將信件分別傳真或郵寄（白紙黑字較電郵為佳）至以下三個機構：
民政事務局：
傳真：(852)2591-6002；電郵：hab1@hab.gov.hk
地址：香港灣仔軒尼 詩道130號修頓中心31字樓
行政長官辦公室（特首辦）：
傳真：(852) 2509-0577；電郵：ceo@ceo.gov.hk
地址：香港中環下亞厘畢道中區政府合署中座五樓
平等機會委員會：
傳真：(852) 2511-8142；電郵：eoc@eoc.org.hk
地址：香港灣仔港灣道1號會展廣場辦公大樓20樓
抬頭寫：「致：民政事務局局長何志平先生、民政事務局副秘書長余志穩先生、特首曾蔭權先生、平等機會委員會主席鄧爾邦先生」
主旨可以寫：「反對性傾向歧視立法」。
寫完意見後，請記得加上署名及附上聯絡電話。
如果你支持這行動，請按上面指引發信給政府，然後將你的姓名、所屬界別電郵或傳真至香港性文化學會，並註明「支持一人一信反對性傾向歧視立法」，以便統計人數。
香港性文化學會電郵地址：info@sexculture.org.hk
傳 真：3105-9656 電 話：3165-1858
23 June 2005
出發
星期二是小組聚會的日子。
因為前星期天與組員的討論，決定要從自己做起：認真的參與小組活動，好好的預備查經、敬拜、經文應用等，我們都不約而同地準時齊集教會，且史無前例地準時開始、準時結束，並且好好地分享了對經文的理解與應用！
不再感到離開時比回到時更疲倦、更無力，反而是充滿喜樂，帶著立下的應用內容，快快樂樂的踏上回家的路。
看！一個微小的決定可以帶來多麼重要的轉變啊！
原來神要求我們的，從來就只是回轉：撿視自己的不足、承認、面對、轉變，向對的方向、神的方向重新出發！
求創始成終的神，與我們同在，繼續引領我們走這條天國的路。
因為前星期天與組員的討論，決定要從自己做起：認真的參與小組活動，好好的預備查經、敬拜、經文應用等，我們都不約而同地準時齊集教會，且史無前例地準時開始、準時結束，並且好好地分享了對經文的理解與應用！
不再感到離開時比回到時更疲倦、更無力，反而是充滿喜樂，帶著立下的應用內容，快快樂樂的踏上回家的路。
看！一個微小的決定可以帶來多麼重要的轉變啊！
原來神要求我們的，從來就只是回轉：撿視自己的不足、承認、面對、轉變，向對的方向、神的方向重新出發！
求創始成終的神，與我們同在，繼續引領我們走這條天國的路。
20 June 2005
Tony Takitani
這是一齣根據日本作家村上春樹同名小說改編而成的日本電影。
就電影語言來說，取鏡很微觀，很少機會看到完整的人、事、物、場景，而且同一幕裡角度不變，彷彿觀眾是躲藏在某一點的偷窺者，有點疏離、而且不能盡窺全豹。
就課題而言，我會說是「孤單」。
這個男子，因為是日本人卻有個洋名而被排擠，父親又總是缺席、母親早逝，所以很早就習慣了孤單。想說習慣了就好，一生如此也毋妨。
但、一個女子翩然降臨他的生命，令他明白孤單就似困身牢籠。所以他抓緊機會，讓這個人生過客為他停留。這一段的人生終於有了色彩、有了活力。
好景當然是不常的，這個女子與他死別了，留下一室的華服，令他感到窒息。
於是他用捨棄去達至忘記。
而孤單也就繼續如影隨形，不休不止。
朋友說：這就是人生的常態，接受就好。
我說：這故然是人生的常態，但接受了並不等於好受了。
人活著，故然無人能全然被了解，但連試著與人交往、彼此分享這一步都不去跨出，是否有點悲哀、有點自殘呢？
生命，絕對值得我們更好的對待！
就電影語言來說，取鏡很微觀，很少機會看到完整的人、事、物、場景，而且同一幕裡角度不變，彷彿觀眾是躲藏在某一點的偷窺者，有點疏離、而且不能盡窺全豹。
就課題而言，我會說是「孤單」。
這個男子，因為是日本人卻有個洋名而被排擠，父親又總是缺席、母親早逝，所以很早就習慣了孤單。想說習慣了就好，一生如此也毋妨。
但、一個女子翩然降臨他的生命，令他明白孤單就似困身牢籠。所以他抓緊機會，讓這個人生過客為他停留。這一段的人生終於有了色彩、有了活力。
好景當然是不常的，這個女子與他死別了，留下一室的華服，令他感到窒息。
於是他用捨棄去達至忘記。
而孤單也就繼續如影隨形，不休不止。
朋友說：這就是人生的常態，接受就好。
我說：這故然是人生的常態，但接受了並不等於好受了。
人活著，故然無人能全然被了解，但連試著與人交往、彼此分享這一步都不去跨出，是否有點悲哀、有點自殘呢？
生命，絕對值得我們更好的對待！
重生
過去一個月裡不用上課的日子，終於可以定下來想想教會、小組的問題。
跟不同的組員談過的結果，是原來大家都對目前的停滯不前、前路茫茫有很多的無力感。
其實大家都很希望有好的小組生活：彼此牧養、互相支持、同走天路。但為何會淪落至如今大家都是得過且過、苟延殘喘的地步呢？可能真的應了「沒有異象、民就放肆…」(箴言－29:18)的說法罷。
所以，大家決定從自己做起：好好的查經，恆常的讀經、祈禱、聚會，彼此互相鞭策、互為提醒。
我想，神的靈實在是在感動我們，叫我們真的為自己、為同伴的生命著緊！
求復興之火，不斷燃燒，點燃我們小組，也點燃全教會！
跟不同的組員談過的結果，是原來大家都對目前的停滯不前、前路茫茫有很多的無力感。
其實大家都很希望有好的小組生活：彼此牧養、互相支持、同走天路。但為何會淪落至如今大家都是得過且過、苟延殘喘的地步呢？可能真的應了「沒有異象、民就放肆…」(箴言－29:18)的說法罷。
所以，大家決定從自己做起：好好的查經，恆常的讀經、祈禱、聚會，彼此互相鞭策、互為提醒。
我想，神的靈實在是在感動我們，叫我們真的為自己、為同伴的生命著緊！
求復興之火，不斷燃燒，點燃我們小組，也點燃全教會！
07 June 2005
知足
今天的新聞有一小段報導一個青春少艾因胸前平坦，羞於示人，所以接受了隆胸手術。但因一方填充物爆裂，造成不平衡的視覺效果，而且胸前留下疤痕，成為一生的烙印。
這，又是一個不知足的血淋淋的例子。
觀乎現今這個社會，女子不單要臉孔俏，還要身材妙，更要美白豐胸，諸如此類，數不勝數。為達目的，往往無所不用其極，千金散盡，仍可以意猶不足。
為的是甚麼呢？因為男性是眼目的動物，所以女為悅己者容？此其基本而已。
女性實在是很有爭競心的族郡：誰的眼睛水汪汪，誰的腿兒直又長，誰的鑽戒可比星光，誰的珠玉寶光流燦，甚至誰的老公是大老闆、大律師，誰的年薪多少……實在有太多的項目，窮一生的精力都根本無法滿足所有比試的要求。
而，女性的耐力是不容小覷的，所以一項一項的去比，其中的苦頭盡是打落牙齒和血吞的。
所以，我們會看見今天的這則新聞！
其實，甚麼才是好呢？
這又回到上次提到的拉結與利亞的情意死結上面了。
各有優勢，何不滿足於所有的，學會珍惜與感恩呢？
這，又是一個不知足的血淋淋的例子。
觀乎現今這個社會，女子不單要臉孔俏，還要身材妙，更要美白豐胸，諸如此類，數不勝數。為達目的，往往無所不用其極，千金散盡，仍可以意猶不足。
為的是甚麼呢？因為男性是眼目的動物，所以女為悅己者容？此其基本而已。
女性實在是很有爭競心的族郡：誰的眼睛水汪汪，誰的腿兒直又長，誰的鑽戒可比星光，誰的珠玉寶光流燦，甚至誰的老公是大老闆、大律師，誰的年薪多少……實在有太多的項目，窮一生的精力都根本無法滿足所有比試的要求。
而，女性的耐力是不容小覷的，所以一項一項的去比，其中的苦頭盡是打落牙齒和血吞的。
所以，我們會看見今天的這則新聞！
其實，甚麼才是好呢？
這又回到上次提到的拉結與利亞的情意死結上面了。
各有優勢，何不滿足於所有的，學會珍惜與感恩呢？
27 May 2005
當朋友相繼遠離、我會嫌棄自己
我已經決定、不再愛你
因為：
你古縮、
你小氣、
你自我中心、
你膽小怕事、
你自憐自艾、
你生活枯燥、
你言語無味、
你不善溝通、
你沒有世界觀、
你沒有社會良心、
你漠視他人需要、
你不顧他人權益、
你嫌人不夠聰明、
你嫌人發音不準、
你嫌人語法錯誤、
你嫌人錯配衣履、
你醜、你笨、你不懂做人。
我不會再理你的了、你自己閃邊暗淡下去罷。
這個世界都會不齒你，離棄你，你獨自腐爛下去罷！
因為：
你古縮、
你小氣、
你自我中心、
你膽小怕事、
你自憐自艾、
你生活枯燥、
你言語無味、
你不善溝通、
你沒有世界觀、
你沒有社會良心、
你漠視他人需要、
你不顧他人權益、
你嫌人不夠聰明、
你嫌人發音不準、
你嫌人語法錯誤、
你嫌人錯配衣履、
你醜、你笨、你不懂做人。
我不會再理你的了、你自己閃邊暗淡下去罷。
這個世界都會不齒你，離棄你，你獨自腐爛下去罷！
16 May 2005
Howl's Moving Castle - the book
I bumped across the book "Howl's Moving castle" by Diana Wynne Jones last Saturday. It was really a detour that I entered the book shop that stored it, so it had been a nice surprise as well as an unexpected purchase.
Actually, as soon as I walked out of the Cinema finished watching the movie of the same name by Miyasaki, and learnt from a friend that it is adopted from a book, I was determined to find it and read it.
There was so much untold in the movie that reading the book seemed to be the only solution to solving all the mysteries.
And I was thankful that I did bump into this book.
Now I know that Sophie was actually quite a beautiful girl just finished school; that Howl is well into his twenties; that Sophie actually contributed partly to Howl's ability to charm and attract the girls he decided to court with; that the scarecrow was not actually the prince; that there was no war raging behind the scenes; that Sophie has a special gift of talking life into lifeless objects; that it was not the Witch of Waste who's after Howl's heart, but her fire demon; that the fire demon was after Howl's heart for a very good reason; that why Sophie was the only person who could break the contract between Calcifer and Howl; that Howl was not flying too much to turn himself into a bird for good; that Howl actually had family, etc.
It made much more sense after reading the whole plot as it was told in the book itself.
I like the book, as much as I like the movie. Both had been most interesting.
And I believe the movie had a special place in my heart simply because it was Takuya Kimura who gave Howl the charming voice in the picture.
And I am very much relieved that it is a children's book after all, not underlay by the war theme as Miyasaki introduced to this story on his own.
Actually, as soon as I walked out of the Cinema finished watching the movie of the same name by Miyasaki, and learnt from a friend that it is adopted from a book, I was determined to find it and read it.
There was so much untold in the movie that reading the book seemed to be the only solution to solving all the mysteries.
And I was thankful that I did bump into this book.
Now I know that Sophie was actually quite a beautiful girl just finished school; that Howl is well into his twenties; that Sophie actually contributed partly to Howl's ability to charm and attract the girls he decided to court with; that the scarecrow was not actually the prince; that there was no war raging behind the scenes; that Sophie has a special gift of talking life into lifeless objects; that it was not the Witch of Waste who's after Howl's heart, but her fire demon; that the fire demon was after Howl's heart for a very good reason; that why Sophie was the only person who could break the contract between Calcifer and Howl; that Howl was not flying too much to turn himself into a bird for good; that Howl actually had family, etc.
It made much more sense after reading the whole plot as it was told in the book itself.
I like the book, as much as I like the movie. Both had been most interesting.
And I believe the movie had a special place in my heart simply because it was Takuya Kimura who gave Howl the charming voice in the picture.
And I am very much relieved that it is a children's book after all, not underlay by the war theme as Miyasaki introduced to this story on his own.
27 April 2005
二十、三十、四十
我是知道有這麼一齣電影的，但我沒有看過、所以沒有甚麼感想可言。
我想說的是我自己的心路歷程。
十八、九歲時，剛到外國讀書不久，忙著適應新環境、新朋友。年華正好、青春正盛，憧憬著人生的無限可能性，並且、接受著異性的追求。正是快樂無憂的年代。只覺得一切都美好。可是，一次又一次的背叛，令我更深切的明白到人性的墮落，神的永恆與慈愛。於是、信仰進入了我的生命。到今天我仍為此感恩不盡。
所以說，我的真生命是從我認識這個信仰、這個神開始的。
那時、我二十歲。
大學畢業、準備回港時，我向神求兩件事：一、不叫我貧窮，怕我會埋怨神；但也別叫我太有錢，怕我會離棄神。二、我的配偶一定要是好基督徒，如果不是神命定的，就不要叫我被追求，以免我受不住試探，愛神的心因此動搖。
於是回到香港至今，我的年日豐足但不太超過、感情生活大約等於零。
在面臨三十的時候，確實很埋怨神都不給我愛情：眼見身邊的好友及一起長大的弟兄姊妹都相繼結婚生子，要說不埋怨根本是自欺欺人。
這情況一直維持到最近，即將面臨四十大關時，我才終於明白。這不就是神眷顧我的明證嗎？我當初不就是求神叫我不遇到不屬於我的愛情，以致我不受誘惑、不會傷害自己的嗎？
故然我的感情一片空白，但我有更多的時間去認識神，去體驗神的大能及慈愛，為何我要去埋怨不屬於我的呢？當然我不是說不再求神給我愛情，而是「順其自然」喇！
作為本篇的結尾，我想借用李思敬博士的洞見來形容整件事的本相：
話說雅各有兩個妻子：利亞與拉結。他愛妹妹拉結，不愛姊姊利亞。
利亞從雅各身上，得到四個兒子，正是當時社會覺得婦女有福的指標，但她妒忌妹妹獨佔丈夫的愛。拉結得到丈夫所有的愛，作為一個女人，其實也沒甚麼遺憾，但她妒忌姊姊有子息。
這兩個女人，各自都擁有對方的最大渴望，卻都活得很不快樂。拉結甚至埋怨神不給她兒子。以上，大家都耳熟能詳。
精彩的來了：拉結好不容易得到約瑟，一洗無子之恥之後，還不滿足，又求神多給一個，就在生下便雅憫時，難產而死。
原來懷胎生產根本不是她的體格可以承受的，她一味強求之下，神應允了，可是她也將自己的生命賠上了。
何苦啊？
我但求能隨時隨事滿足於神給我的，無論世人眼中看來好是不好，總相信是神為我「度身訂造」的一個豐盛人生！
我想說的是我自己的心路歷程。
十八、九歲時，剛到外國讀書不久，忙著適應新環境、新朋友。年華正好、青春正盛，憧憬著人生的無限可能性，並且、接受著異性的追求。正是快樂無憂的年代。只覺得一切都美好。可是，一次又一次的背叛，令我更深切的明白到人性的墮落，神的永恆與慈愛。於是、信仰進入了我的生命。到今天我仍為此感恩不盡。
所以說，我的真生命是從我認識這個信仰、這個神開始的。
那時、我二十歲。
大學畢業、準備回港時，我向神求兩件事：一、不叫我貧窮，怕我會埋怨神；但也別叫我太有錢，怕我會離棄神。二、我的配偶一定要是好基督徒，如果不是神命定的，就不要叫我被追求，以免我受不住試探，愛神的心因此動搖。
於是回到香港至今，我的年日豐足但不太超過、感情生活大約等於零。
在面臨三十的時候，確實很埋怨神都不給我愛情：眼見身邊的好友及一起長大的弟兄姊妹都相繼結婚生子，要說不埋怨根本是自欺欺人。
這情況一直維持到最近，即將面臨四十大關時，我才終於明白。這不就是神眷顧我的明證嗎？我當初不就是求神叫我不遇到不屬於我的愛情，以致我不受誘惑、不會傷害自己的嗎？
故然我的感情一片空白，但我有更多的時間去認識神，去體驗神的大能及慈愛，為何我要去埋怨不屬於我的呢？當然我不是說不再求神給我愛情，而是「順其自然」喇！
作為本篇的結尾，我想借用李思敬博士的洞見來形容整件事的本相：
話說雅各有兩個妻子：利亞與拉結。他愛妹妹拉結，不愛姊姊利亞。
利亞從雅各身上，得到四個兒子，正是當時社會覺得婦女有福的指標，但她妒忌妹妹獨佔丈夫的愛。拉結得到丈夫所有的愛，作為一個女人，其實也沒甚麼遺憾，但她妒忌姊姊有子息。
這兩個女人，各自都擁有對方的最大渴望，卻都活得很不快樂。拉結甚至埋怨神不給她兒子。以上，大家都耳熟能詳。
精彩的來了：拉結好不容易得到約瑟，一洗無子之恥之後，還不滿足，又求神多給一個，就在生下便雅憫時，難產而死。
原來懷胎生產根本不是她的體格可以承受的，她一味強求之下，神應允了，可是她也將自己的生命賠上了。
何苦啊？
我但求能隨時隨事滿足於神給我的，無論世人眼中看來好是不好，總相信是神為我「度身訂造」的一個豐盛人生！
25 April 2005
回應秀慧的回應
網友我呢，非常讚同懂得愛自己才是重要。
單身的日子，叫我學習與自己相處，明白自己的死穴是甚麼，有沒有甚麼特別事叫自己豎刺……
明白自己、懂得與自己相處，才懂得坦誠而平和的與人相處。
最後，我開始深信，結婚或單身，沒有甚麼誰優誰劣。重要的是，自己是否能在每一種的境況中滿有喜樂的繼續生活。
神造人，故然是為亞當造了夏娃，但保羅不是也說，單身的可以尊注於神自己，而結了婚的，會被妻子兒女分散了注意力嗎？
自問尊注力不甚高明，想必單身對我是有好處的囉！
秀慧的回應:http://sauwai-sharing.blogspot.com/
單身的日子，叫我學習與自己相處，明白自己的死穴是甚麼，有沒有甚麼特別事叫自己豎刺……
明白自己、懂得與自己相處，才懂得坦誠而平和的與人相處。
最後，我開始深信，結婚或單身，沒有甚麼誰優誰劣。重要的是，自己是否能在每一種的境況中滿有喜樂的繼續生活。
神造人，故然是為亞當造了夏娃，但保羅不是也說，單身的可以尊注於神自己，而結了婚的，會被妻子兒女分散了注意力嗎？
自問尊注力不甚高明，想必單身對我是有好處的囉！
秀慧的回應:http://sauwai-sharing.blogspot.com/
13 April 2005
單身感言
我覺得單身很好，因為：
可以獨享自己的薪金，喜歡旅行就旅行，喜歡買鑽戒又不用與人商量，更不必為下一代留下餘錢。
可以獨享自己的時間，喜歡去哪就去哪，逛街、踏青、泡圖書館、泡書局打書釘，完全不需顧忌悶壞別人。
可以追求自己的興趣，唸碩士課程、唸各種語文、做網站、寫詩、寫文章，不會有人嫌我自閉。
我覺得單身很不好，因為：
去旅行時，沒有同伴。
看電影，沒人討論劇情。
歡喜時，沒人分享。
哭泣時，無人開解。
發表作品時，沒有必然讀者。
面對挫折時，沒有人扶持。
生命道路上，沒有人同行。
老來，會很孤單。
也沒法感受懷胎、生育、養小孩的苦與樂。
所以，單身究竟好不好，真難決定哪！
可以獨享自己的薪金，喜歡旅行就旅行，喜歡買鑽戒又不用與人商量，更不必為下一代留下餘錢。
可以獨享自己的時間，喜歡去哪就去哪，逛街、踏青、泡圖書館、泡書局打書釘，完全不需顧忌悶壞別人。
可以追求自己的興趣，唸碩士課程、唸各種語文、做網站、寫詩、寫文章，不會有人嫌我自閉。
我覺得單身很不好，因為：
去旅行時，沒有同伴。
看電影，沒人討論劇情。
歡喜時，沒人分享。
哭泣時，無人開解。
發表作品時，沒有必然讀者。
面對挫折時，沒有人扶持。
生命道路上，沒有人同行。
老來，會很孤單。
也沒法感受懷胎、生育、養小孩的苦與樂。
所以，單身究竟好不好，真難決定哪！
07 April 2005
遙不可及的愛情
用了兩個晚上徹夜追看「大長今」這齣韓劇。之所以追看，是因為當中的愛情。
難以想像一個古代男人，在男權至上，自己又是士大夫、大官的情況下，可以為了要心愛的女人盡展所長，連自己的名聲、官位、社會地位、人身安全、甚至自己能否與她廝守，都完全放下。這是怎麼樣的愛情呢？
他為她，不顧曠職，追隨她至被流放之地，而承受被罷職的危險。
他為她，不顧疫症橫流，硬闖被封鎖的疫區，與她共存亡。當中被疫區災民痛毆、甚至要殺他洩憤，也與她相守一起。即使可以因買藥之故離開，他仍要回來，與她並肩面對難關，成為她的後盾、她的加油站。
他為她，不顧被彈劾流放貶為賤民，也要力排眾議，力主她成為王的主冶醫官。
他為她，不顧顛沛流離，終日流亡，也要與她共渡人生。
他對她，簡直是以他整個的生命去愛著呢！
這可能是現代的女性、尤其是具有專業成就、卻愛情欠奉的所謂女強人夢寐也難求的奢想：在她失意的時候給她重新站起來的勇氣，在她失去自信時給她繼續堅持下去的力量… …完全的肯定，甚至比她本人更肯定她的潛能與才華。
這是怎麼樣的愛情呢？
我不知道這個閔姓角色的真實性，只是想當然矣的覺得是為劇中愛情原素而增加或潤飾的人物罷。怎麼可能有這種男子呢？只怕是個遙不可及的夢想罷了！
難以想像一個古代男人，在男權至上，自己又是士大夫、大官的情況下，可以為了要心愛的女人盡展所長，連自己的名聲、官位、社會地位、人身安全、甚至自己能否與她廝守，都完全放下。這是怎麼樣的愛情呢？
他為她，不顧曠職，追隨她至被流放之地，而承受被罷職的危險。
他為她，不顧疫症橫流，硬闖被封鎖的疫區，與她共存亡。當中被疫區災民痛毆、甚至要殺他洩憤，也與她相守一起。即使可以因買藥之故離開，他仍要回來，與她並肩面對難關，成為她的後盾、她的加油站。
他為她，不顧被彈劾流放貶為賤民，也要力排眾議，力主她成為王的主冶醫官。
他為她，不顧顛沛流離，終日流亡，也要與她共渡人生。
他對她，簡直是以他整個的生命去愛著呢！
這可能是現代的女性、尤其是具有專業成就、卻愛情欠奉的所謂女強人夢寐也難求的奢想：在她失意的時候給她重新站起來的勇氣，在她失去自信時給她繼續堅持下去的力量… …完全的肯定，甚至比她本人更肯定她的潛能與才華。
這是怎麼樣的愛情呢？
我不知道這個閔姓角色的真實性，只是想當然矣的覺得是為劇中愛情原素而增加或潤飾的人物罷。怎麼可能有這種男子呢？只怕是個遙不可及的夢想罷了！
01 April 2005
健康與靈命
因為家中的中文輸入程式突然罷工，所以久久未曾發佈新的文章。
其實最近很忙，忙著工作，也忙著病。春天簡直是我一年中最不健康的季節，所以從來對春天都是一則以喜、一則以憂。喜的是新的一年，又可以忘記過去一年的缺失、重新做起。憂的卻是又會纏綿病榻，真正在過的日子大打折扣。就以上星期來說，病了一星期，只上了星期二一天的班，再上班已是這星期的星期二，所以有點感覺錯亂，好像沒有下過班一樣！
三月這一個月，實在是我的死月﹙或死穴﹚。唉！
既然身體違和，靈性也就更跌破新低。所以別單說：鍛鍊身體、益處還少。我覺得如果身體不好，靈性恐怕也會大打折扣罷。鍛鍊身體，是鍛鍊靈命的基本入門罷？！
其實最近很忙，忙著工作，也忙著病。春天簡直是我一年中最不健康的季節，所以從來對春天都是一則以喜、一則以憂。喜的是新的一年，又可以忘記過去一年的缺失、重新做起。憂的卻是又會纏綿病榻，真正在過的日子大打折扣。就以上星期來說，病了一星期，只上了星期二一天的班，再上班已是這星期的星期二，所以有點感覺錯亂，好像沒有下過班一樣！
三月這一個月，實在是我的死月﹙或死穴﹚。唉！
既然身體違和，靈性也就更跌破新低。所以別單說：鍛鍊身體、益處還少。我覺得如果身體不好，靈性恐怕也會大打折扣罷。鍛鍊身體，是鍛鍊靈命的基本入門罷？！
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